Sooooooooooooooooo.....
This blog is long overdue and although I no longer am dealing with this I'm still going to share it. I purposed in my heart to be transparent in this blog and to let yall see the good and bad. Last week was part of the bad. I went through a slump of discouragement.
As you know, I challenged you all to a 40 day SEX FAST...I didn't get many hits although I'm grateful for the one that is participating but mostly I just had a lot of people reading the blog. For one, I'm not doing this for attention or to be "popular" it's just that I really felt like people are ashamed to DO RIGHT. There is nothing wrong with abstaining from sex until you're married. There is nothing wrong with seeing if the Word truly works. But we're in a society where doing the right thing is not acceptable. And so I begin to feel discouraged because I couldn't figure out how so many people can talk about having sex all day long and NOT BE ASHAMED....and yet those that actually stand for righteousness seem to be ASHAMED.
Maybe that's why the Lord is using me; I'm not ashamed. And I'm not ashamed to stand alone, lonely it may be. But I will admit, I was challenged. I cried out to God wondering why I had to be the one to be used to bring attention to this? Everybody else practicing this lifestyle is low key with it. Yet.....My book is about sex and abstinence, my organization is about sex and abstinence, mostly everything I say on Twitter & FB is related to sex and abstinence....WHY ME!? Why do I have to care so much about the sexual sins of this city, of this nation. I mean, everybody else that practices abstinence is pretty much on the "down low" with it. No offense to those but as Christians our lives should be a testimony to others. How can you light a candle and put it under a bed? I almost feel like people are really ashamed to look unpopular or fear social rejection.
I've never really been the type to be concerned about what people thought of me. When I was sexually active, I was reserved just because I don't feel like everyone should know what I do in the bedroom; but not because I was ashamed. Whether I was doing right or doing wrong...I was doing me. So whatever to the opinions of others. So I really didn't care what people thought. But the last few days I just felt more and more discouraged and alone. And then it burned me up that I had a comment to say, "...if she don't give it to me someone else will." I mean THAT is the society that we live in and yet we as WOMEN don't realize our worth and to VALUE ourselves enough to say, "You don't deserve me." And us that know better aren't doing a dang on thing to help these women and pull the blinds off of their eyes. No men are stepping up to say that a REAL man would wait. But everybodys so "real" these days....yeah?!
It burnt me up because I know that fear all to well. I feared losing my fiance because of this but instead he went from boyfriend to fiance within 3 months of this decision. And the date has been set! If a man really loves you, he will wait and respect your decision. But it's that senselessness and NOBODY is helping anyone out!!! Christians shouldn't be selfish with things like this! I got a text at 3am this morning from an old student telling me how my blog impacted her life. THAT IS WHY I DO THIS. CHRISTIANS--PEOPLE need to see your LIGHT!
So, yes, I felt alone; I felt discouraged. And I prayed...and I cried. I thought no one was paying attention to these blogs but the number of hits go up everyday. I just pray that the boldness comes to walk in integrity and purity and KNOW that although it's not the POPULAR choice, there are rewards to being obedient.
I listened to Mary Mary's song, "Sitting With Me" on repeat Saturday morning. And it really helped me alot! I challenge you to take a listen.
So anyway, this is me, "Ms. Unpopular...never asked to be part of the in crowd.".....
Here's a quote from my devotional...something to think about:
#teamABSTINENCE...........LET'S GO!!!!
Available for contact - donnaking@teamabstinence.org
Monday, September 5, 2011
Saturday, September 3, 2011
REASONS I WAIT
1. God called me to this lifestyle. For months and months He kept speaking to my heart until it really got unbearable. I could not ignore it. I made my final decision at the end of May. God spoke two things to me **1. He (the guy I was dating) can't be first to the point where I am disobedient to His voice
**2. I don't have to dishonor my body to receive him because he (my husband) is already given to me
2. I have received revelation on how precious I am to God and how precious my body is. We are to honor our bodies, realizing that our bodies were bought with a price.
3. Everybody you sleep with becomes your spiritual husband, thus entangling you in soul ties. This is the reason for all the domestic situations we see going on. I have found I've been MUCH stronger in dealing with certain things. Situations where I would have cried all night and acted ignorant over, although hurt, I didn't let it lose my focus as if I would if we were sleeping together. I only want to be tied to my husband; then and only then will that man be worth my tears.
4. The consequences of sexual sin: there are so many to name. And it doesn't just stop at STDs; what about emotional damage? Even when you use "protection" you are not protected. And things are becoming now where even STDs are becoming drug resistant! So what does that tell you? Not to mention children born out of wedlock...I've been through ALL of this and quite frankly...I'm just sick and tired. If we keep doing the same things, how do we expect change to come?
5. I have so much PEACE!!!!! You can NEVER imagine until you surrender the PEACE. Even typing this right now, any other time, I would be angry and responding in flesh. But I'm not because the peace of God
"which passes all understanding" will keep you. The peace is really enough!!!
6. I'm so much more focused on the things that will ultimately matter; my children, my career, my relationship with God. I can hear from God way more clear.
7. The BLESSINGS of obedience!!! I have recieved blessings, upon blessings, upon blessings....just overflow! It's not that God is not answering your prayers, it's that your disobedience closes the door to those prayers. God told me that He was getting ready to release every blessing I'd been waiting on NOW that there was a door to bless me through. Sin & disobedience blocks the blessings of God from getting to us.
There are more...more I'll let these 7 sink in for now
Peace Out
**2. I don't have to dishonor my body to receive him because he (my husband) is already given to me
2. I have received revelation on how precious I am to God and how precious my body is. We are to honor our bodies, realizing that our bodies were bought with a price.
3. Everybody you sleep with becomes your spiritual husband, thus entangling you in soul ties. This is the reason for all the domestic situations we see going on. I have found I've been MUCH stronger in dealing with certain things. Situations where I would have cried all night and acted ignorant over, although hurt, I didn't let it lose my focus as if I would if we were sleeping together. I only want to be tied to my husband; then and only then will that man be worth my tears.
4. The consequences of sexual sin: there are so many to name. And it doesn't just stop at STDs; what about emotional damage? Even when you use "protection" you are not protected. And things are becoming now where even STDs are becoming drug resistant! So what does that tell you? Not to mention children born out of wedlock...I've been through ALL of this and quite frankly...I'm just sick and tired. If we keep doing the same things, how do we expect change to come?
5. I have so much PEACE!!!!! You can NEVER imagine until you surrender the PEACE. Even typing this right now, any other time, I would be angry and responding in flesh. But I'm not because the peace of God
"which passes all understanding" will keep you. The peace is really enough!!!
6. I'm so much more focused on the things that will ultimately matter; my children, my career, my relationship with God. I can hear from God way more clear.
7. The BLESSINGS of obedience!!! I have recieved blessings, upon blessings, upon blessings....just overflow! It's not that God is not answering your prayers, it's that your disobedience closes the door to those prayers. God told me that He was getting ready to release every blessing I'd been waiting on NOW that there was a door to bless me through. Sin & disobedience blocks the blessings of God from getting to us.
There are more...more I'll let these 7 sink in for now
Peace Out
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